我的心告诉我,它好难受. my heart told me, it feels unhappy.
它不想再在这里逗留,让人在背后对它指点. it doesn’t want to stay here anymore.
看到别人,它很羡慕.同时也感觉弧独.it feels envy when it looks at other people.In the same time, it feels lonely.
它只不过想要一个哥,一个姐.It needs a brother and a sister.
是的,它想被保护,它要一个了解它的人.Yes, to protect it and to understand it.
很多人都对它不友善.Many people is treating it unfriendly.
就连气候与空气都在欺负它.Even the weather and air is also bullying it.
呼…避风港…世上没酱的东西.hhuu…haven..don’t have such thing in this world.
世人都在欺骗它…People is bluffing it…
我的心告诉我,它…快死了.My heart told me, it is going to die.
There is a boy..which i feel sakit hati when i think bout him.
He’s so cute n owiz v a smiley face.Every time when i mit v him, sure he’ll give me a hepi smile..
i like to c he smiles..
haiz…
but i think i hv to hurt him..i’m not willing to do so but i terpaksa cuz i hv to reject him.der’s no way not to hurt ppl during rejection.
he’s really a gd boy..i tak sampai hati..feel so sad when i think bout it, sumtimes i feel like wana cry oso…
wad to do..he likes da gal who is impossible to b v him, da gal is me…
i feel surprised, n shocked…i do appreciate wad u hv done for me, n i really feel touched but sori…i cant accept da luv u give me, i think i’m disqualified for it.
it happens again…n i think it’s repeating wad had happen last year..haiz…a very scary nightmare…VI get da 3rd place for da choir competition. it’s so shocked n surprised, v nvr think dat v’ll get da 3rd place, n v all pretend dat v can get either da 2nd o da champion. da minute da mc announce da winner for 3rd place, which is SMK Victoria…i sot liao…da whole brain was blank..den i was luking at my conductor going up to da stage n get da small trophy..v a muka senyum paksaan, my tears began to drop down. T.T n after dat..i cry n cry..i really cant tahan my tears, dun k dat my junior was sitting besides me, n watching at me crying.
I think v put quite a lot of effort, n mayb can get a better result..but it seems like no use, v even get da more worse result..haiz..hw can dis happen?? y da GOD threat us like dat..v do really hope to go Terengganu for da national state..dat time i was really in a damn bad mood, dun wan to talk n cant even smile.
but after dat…i’m ok d cuz i joined my ss choir family. v went to Agatha’s house to make a small jamuan for ourself, jz to console ourself.v bought dos ingredients from jusco, frankly, i was so hepi dat time…v spent da whole afternoon together, i skipped my accounts tuition, jz wana hv fun v dem..n forget bout dos sad things.wad a waste dat my "gorgor", Eugene, cant join us…haiz.. T.T
without dem, i dun think dat i’m still healthy sitting here, typing out dis blog…i might do sth crazy n silly…i really do appreciate a lot..n oso, my conductor, Audrey..my ex-seniors who spent their masa yang berharga to teach us notes, movements, vocal n everything v patience…so glad to noe dem n hv dem…
bcuz of dem, my days in VI choir wun b so bored ^^
sad to lose da competition n i hv to accept it but at least i earned dat valuable things which money cant buy it, which is friendship n oso memories…
thx for u guys..i luv u all…muacks… ^^
Finally i can on9 le…so sori to those frens whom i din send a burfday wish to them..so so so sori…dats all my stupid computer’s fault lah.. >.<
many things happen in dis short period..sum r sad, sum r hepi…n sum made me feel frustrated…but dey d past…by now, i’m hepi v my life, although i’m bz n tired for my choir competition which is coming very soon, on dis thursday…hmm…i really want to win it, n go to Terengganu, i dun wan to cry again bcucz of our failure…seriously… T.T
jz get bek my result…it’s so so so terrible, i cant even believe dat i can get such “SUCK” result…haiyoyo…both economics n business papers, ngam ngam pass oni…it din happen in my passed primary n secondary exam…but now…it occurs like..dah biasa… T.T is dat bcuz i’m so so so stupid ah…really feel disappointed to myself..
huhu..now jz wana concentrate on my choir competition…da carnival n 4 skols gathering had been passed…n i get a serious sun burn…bcum more darker n darker…haha…
hmm hmm…mayb der vil hv more gd chinese poets vil b posted in dis blog..
2 b continued…kekekekeke….
