原来

有没有发现到最近我常抿嘴笑?而且都不自然.

面对朋友们的问号,我只能随意带跳.
发现到,原来我是那么的微不足道,你所谓的重要,只是口头上的另一种讨好.

我不要…我不要这种依靠!!

宁转向另一人的怀抱,得到那一秒的靠岸.

nightmare..

i had a nightmare. it was a very scary dream..it doesnt related to ghost, phantom or devil, but my boyboy.
haiz..da dream is so true..it was like really really happen..i was so sad, n i cried too…i told my frens bout dat, she told me dat if i told another ppl bout da dream, da dream wun cum true, is dat true wad she said? of course, i dun wan da dream happen..
aiyoyo…hw can i hv that dream ah…if da dream really cum true (touch wood!!), i’ll getting mad n has to b sent to Hospital TAnjung RAmbutan, o mayb might commit suicide..huhu..
"nan-mo-ah-mi-tuo-fuo"…hope it wun happen in my future..T.T

If you dislike me..

如果你不喜欢我,就不要跟我讲话,何必费心想话刺我?如果你不喜欢我,就不要做我的朋友,少你这种朋友我无所谓.如果你不喜欢我,就不要找我,我知道你在别人面前伪装也很辛苦.如果你不喜欢我,最好也别在我面前出现,我也不想看到你.如果你不喜欢我,少管我,不用费尽心思陷害我.如果你不喜欢我,就离开我的世界,我也不愿你出现在我的世界.

If you dislike me, tell me as well.

一秒的安慰

闭上眼就看见你的侧脸
这感觉像你还靠在我肩
沿着你眉间轻抚忧郁的眼
让失眠的我守在你的梦里面
想听见你的呼吸在耳边
这音乐能平静我的一切
明天再遥远不过是训练
训练多疼你一点
一秒的安慰
是我想你的滋味
微甜的滋味
让我能去面对
欠你的安慰
尽管你从不曾说累
你寂寞的眼我发现
对你总不够体贴
一秒的安慰
是那思念的滋味
微甜的滋味
给你力气面对
温柔的安慰
让它流入你的心扉
给我机会去体会
生命里有你多美
想听见你说的任何字眼
会温暖这颗心忘了疲倦
再多的考验不过是训练
训练更多的了解

紫印留下我的面对。我封印了我的伤悲。
遗留了微笑的尖锐。呼吸不只是三天两夜。
一秒的安慰。你说它能让你入睡。
节奏的快慢进退，带出了事与愿违。
晶滢水滴如落叶。秋天只懂枯叶心碎。
一秒的安慰，是我想你的滋味。
苦涩滋味，你不一定能体会。

wad happen…

     Erm..how to start my blog today? i don’t know where to start it because these few days really have many things happened and i’m like playing roller coaster, fly up to the high level then suddenly roll down.  i didn’t scream. I didn’t cry also.
     today is my dad’s birthday, i’m here to wish him happy birthday!! I bought a cake for him, a quite different, unique, and priceless cake. It was a carrot walnut cheesecake, so happy that he likes it.. ^^ finally i can drive on my own!! my parents won’t sit beside me to watch me drive..haha..i’m free!!! Anyway, don’t worry, i’ll be careful.
     Besides that, today is also my school band competition. i like to watch band and of course, today i went to Stadium Putra to support them. those competitors are so "GENG"..and we couldn’t get top 3..I’m so sad leh..how can it be? it’s just the same as my choir..We are beaten by the girls schools..haiz…Although we can’t get the better place, we already did our best. We won because of our commitment and spirit…YEAH!!! WE ARE THE BEST!!! and that’s only the way we can console ourselves..what a pity~~ T.T
      Is that..our life should be? i feel a bit tired nowadays..don’t know why lah..BUT..i really do enjoy my days..i like my friends, i love my school..hmm..the last year for me in secondary school…i don’t want to leave!! hehe…

五连拍

1.期待
原来期待是那么的可等待.
盼着第二天的醒来,
沉睡的苏醒睁开.

2.筹备
什么跟什么的,
准备好了么?
欠缺了什么…
什么却被冷落着..

3.进行中
空气在循环,
呼吸在缠绕,
汗水滴滴掉,
有什么是我不知道?

4.成果
付出那么多,
不一定有同样成果.
不一定是土地不肥沃,
也可能是灌水不够多.

5.心情
你
知道心情的形状吗?
知道感觉的颜色吗?
知道想法的重量吗?
…仙家就知道.

hmm…not bad lah…

Actually i was in a bad mood today…not really bad mood but jz feeling unhepi. i feel a bit disappointed oso..Y? tmr vil b my boyboy’s burfday, i’ve planned hw to celebrate his burf v him, but suddenly he told me dat he wun b free by tmr. Last sat i planned to celebrate v him oso bcuz i think dat, burfday shud b celebrate earlier rather than late. I’ve planned everything since da begining of JUNE..but now, i hv to break all plans…haiz…i feel so disappointed..

He said it’s ok, nex time v clebrate it again…but..u hv to know, last year, my 18 years old burufday, he said so oso..but at last, v din celebrate it, same v valentines’ day oso..haiz..wad shud i say leh? I was really feel grey dis morning…but in d afternoon, my mood is brightened up by my dear luvly ss choir family…i want to sat thank you to dem who really stand at my side, understand me, accompany me..If not, i’ll still like a “walking mayat”..hehe…n oso, thx for my frens who owiz k me a lot…especially da BAMBOO PING..so sori dat i din tell u wad had happened..but u noe my style, i’ll jz kip in my heart, express it by writing blogs o diary…

hMm…use studies to mabuk myself, i duno whether it’s a best way onot…at least, i can concentrate on my studies..dun think too much lah…i shud hv to tell myself, b hepi owiz… ^^

ohya…almost forget!!! today when i passed thru da 籃球總部, stadium basketball…i saw da gal which i quite admire her, KAI LUNN!!haha…she did turn her head n luk at us, i was so hepi leh!!!i can c her again..but so sad dat i’m still not brave enuff to go towars her n talk to her, i wana b her fren… ^^ she’s so smart leh.. ^^ hmm..i think i hv to train my braveness so dat nex time when i mit her, i can go towards her n talk to her.. ^^

aiyoyo…my frens vil think i’m crazy liao…keke… X D

我的心。。它痛得我眼淚也要出來替我開解。而我的淚，陪了我一整夜。