y i hv to study? (y cant i play?)
y i hv to listen to wad u say? (y cant u listen to me?)
y i hv to slp? (y i cant awake for 24 hours?)
y i hv to rest? (y cant i do my work for 24hours?)
y i hv to laugh? (y cant i cry?)
y i hv to b optimistic? (y cant i b pessimistic?)
…WHY…
i’m nothing, i’m not important at all, i’m not belonging to anybody..
if i’m missing, nobody vil find me o even realize dat i’m lost..
i’m disappeared..
i’m transparent..
hahahahaha…me mad liao…
again…i hurt a boy again…
hw cum it b like dat de..i nvr mean to do so, but hw cum it happened??
i’m owiz da bad person..hurt ppl , hurt ppl der..
haiz..wad to do…
it’s jz like lost its control..
i kip making ppl suffer.
i noe i dun hv qualification to fil upset o even cry when he was telling his feelings..
he’s rite…i dun like him..my heart isnt v him.
"你的心都不在这!干嘛红眼睛?"
…written 01.15am 7-10-07
在我跟你说出这句话之前,我已流了一公升的眼泪.
it could b true..bcuz i din count my tears.
but for sure..it’s uncountable..
it’s worthy than everything in dis world..
when i cry for u..dat means i d gave up my heaven..
BOY~~
u r my heaven, u r my everything..
跑去看武术比赛,总算圆了我的一个心愿.
其实我都是一个人的.
第ニ天去看时,只有我一个.
当时见到了师兄,却只顾他朋友.环顾四周,全都不是孤单一个.我当时的存在,显示出我的特出.静静坐在一角,像是随时被忽略掉.
我挺享受,却也觉得可悲.
忽然有个感想…原来,就算我有很多朋友,有位男朋友,我依然是会无时无刻感觉孤独的.
呵…那是负面情绪漫延,还是我天生本来就是一位弧独侠??
