下雨天
下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴
期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴
下雨天了怎么办 我好想你
不敢打给你 我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替
陪我听雨滴
期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪
一个人好累
怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑 才能够有你的体贴
今天…朋友问了我一个问题。
她说：“嘉宜，其实你这样，不觉得有压力吗？”
问得好…
你认为呢？
为什么你这样觉得呢？
“嗯…因为你同一时间要办这么多东西啊！”
你们看到的只是左边的我，右边的我你还没看过呢！
我在朋友心目中都像是一个超人，要上课，要教琴，要学武术，另外还上会计班…时间表都是满满的…
我也忘了自己是什么时候变得那么的忙，印象中，就在每一个人都对我说我不小了，要会想了……嗯，那时候吧！
不要以为嘉宜很开朗，很爱笑。那只是在掩饰我的难过，也在鼓励自己不要那么的悲观，事情并没有想象的那么糟……
我崩溃哭的时候，你都还没看到呢…
我无助得像小孩不见了妈妈时的样子，你还没看到呢…
因为我习惯了收藏，不想我的不开心或一时的发泄让人看起来像在无理取闹…我并没有。我只是静静的…
有时候，糟糕的是，我忘了怎么哭……
不想被人把我看得很脆弱，所以一直都努力装强…
唉……路还是要走，日子还是要过……
多大压力都好，我还得撑下去。
有时候日子失去了重心，我就象蒲公英，任风吹，到处飘…
可以吧……
就算不可以也要逼自己可以……
大压力，真的很累…
我都只能一个人熬过……（这就是没有男友的悲哀之处，什么都得自己一个撑，哈哈……）
加油！！
可是…我真的很想睡下……
yo no na ci sino para quereros, quereros..
i was born to love only you..
mi alma os ha cortado, cortado a sumedida..
my soul has formed you to its measure..
habito del alma misma, del alma misma os quiero…
i want you as a garment for my soul..
escritoesta en mi alma, alma, alma, alma vuestro gesto…
your very image is written on my soul..
yo lo leo tan solo que…
such indescribable intimacy..
que aun de vos me guardo en esto…por vos..
i hide even from you..
quanto tengo, confiesso yo debe..
all that i have, i owe to you..
yo deveros, por vos naci, naci porvos, porvos tengo la vida…
for you i was born, and for you i live..
habito del alma..del alma misma os quiero..
i want you as a garment for my soul..
y porvos…e de morir, y por vos e de morir..
and for you i must die..
yo no naci, para quereros, por vos…
and for you, i give my last breath..
拜拜……
转身，我红了双眼。
不舍得…真的不舍得…
再次回头看，你的样貌渐渐模糊掉…
舍不得…之前的轻松快乐时光…
我很会假装，假装什么事我都能掌控到…
其实…还不行……
我还是很依赖的…
找不到靠岸，紧逼自己去伪装一切都很好…
一切都结束后，我的世界也安静了…
想起你的脸，我掉泪了…
掉泪，却也把抽泣声收紧…怕……软弱被发现……
到底…还要游多久，我才能到达对岸？
我会不回就这样的…往下沉……？
谁会拉住我，谁会拯救我……
谁……会看着我从高空坠落？
我站在离你最远的位置，感觉你我就只有一颗心的距离…
我很想把你抱紧，却怯步了……
感情…再也不会表达了。
我们都回到战场了……
结局是胜是负，都得全力以赴。
就算是死无全尸，也只能冲……
不敢说辛苦，不能轻易说放弃……
为了当时的承诺，咬紧牙关……
拼了……
Finally i have time to rest..
Today is the 4th day i’m having my exam…tomorrow will be my last day lah!!hurray…
just hope it’ll end as soon as possible because it gives a lot of stress to me..
it’s more than one month i’m in UPM, i’ve discovered a lot of things.Apart from my friends, my classmates, my roommate, my ..mate, my …mate…person who i always meet is leturer and teacher le.
I have a very friendly piano teacher.She’s very good to me, i never see she angry..she’s always with a sweet smiley face ^^
she speaks softly too..^o^
there’s one day that i didn’t practise my piano due to too many works to do…and of course because of my lazyness…i didn’t practise much for my piano.So, that day i just do my sightreading.I’m very confidence with my sightreading because i’m good in reading and playing notes which i never studied before.
I am very confidence..but my teacher realise that.she said my sightreading is very good but i still need to work more harder.she didn’t scold me but just ask me to work more harder and to practise more so i can play the piece perfectly..
she didn’t angry..she didn’t scold me..but…after i heard that..i feel regret..
i feel regret that why i didn’t practise…
teacher is so good to me…
and since that day, whenever it’s my practise time, i go to practise my piano…i work more harder, i analyse the piece and try to remember..
i don’t want to make my teacher feel disappointed..so, teacher, i’ll get a fantastic result in my coming exam ^^
I have a bad lecturer.
he said he’s a professor but i didn’t think so.the way he talks…doesn’t reflect that he is a professor.
i think he has kind of bias with music students…
that day, he talked to our class..
then he said that music course is not important, and he said that music TAK GUNA..he said that people still can live withot music but can’t live without food..(he’s my agriculture and man lecturer)
i’m agree that people can’t live without food but i can’t stand that he said MUSIC TAK GUNA.while he was saying that, he was smiling to me and think that what he’s saying is very funny.what a lame joke..
that time i really want to MEMBISUKAN him ah..
ask him to shut up because the voice he speaks out is oso a kind of music.
i really hate him..
SO…
i skipped his class for once.
don’t know how come UPM got this kind of lecture.
if i know it earlier, i won’t take this course in this semester.
i also can say agriculture course no use loh! actually i also don’t know why we need to study this course, feel like i learn nothing..
AND..
that’s all for my blog today..going to revise my agriculture le..tomorrow will have exam..want to study hard, don’t want let him look down on us (music students).HNG….
if i get excellent result, i would like to ask him DIAM…
if only if i can do so..
huhu~~
p/s: my laptop haven’t install chinese language software…want to write in chinese leh…hehe..it’s more easier for me to express out..
离开上一次，我也单身了挺久的。
刚进了大学，新朋友对我的看法也有新的一个说法。
他们都认为，我很开放，是不可能为任何一个男生而停下的女孩。
他们都认为，我不曾有过男友，却会有很多要好的男性朋友。
他们也都认为我很独立，我很坚强……
刚刚听到他们的说法时，是有被吓一大跳的。
想不到…我变了呢！
变到……我也不知怎么讲。
好像强到……不需要一个男生来保护我一样……
想到这里，我只想傻笑…
其实我也不知自己是不是真的不需要。
今天一个人去金河chambers music 报名考试……
一路上，甚少看到有人是跟我一样，一个人。
心中没有酸酸的， 只有木木的感觉。想想……也真的好久没让自己休息一下，把自己还给自己了。
还好……上天对我不差，有帅哥跟我微笑呢！
可能笑我的傻样吧！
哈哈……
一个人……
这样证明，我成功做到我定下的目标了。
也打破了朋友们对我的说法–〉不到一个月又有新男友。
哈哈……
我不花心，我真得很痴心。
只是…没有一个男生是值得我为他而放一颗心。
我要的，你不能给…
我不要的，你却给足一百分……
你能给的，我都想要， 但是……却不代表，我一定得接受完你能给的。
I’m now having my dinner, I’m now listening to music, I’m now writing this blog…
in one time, i do a lot of things…
haiz…
it’s the 5th week I’m in UPM…don’t ever notice that the time passes so fast…it reflects how BUSY I am..
I’m not a superwoman, I’m not a robot, but the life here really trainning me to be like that.
As you all know my timetable…it’s really crazy but it’s not the one i’m following.
I’m following a MAD SCHEDULE…
haha….
it’s only the 5th week and I already have to sit for the exam…
what did i learn in the past one month?
I can’t really figure it out but i did learn something…it’s not much…
i wonder why UPM set the exam like this…
exam exam…it’s not easy…but it really TOUGH!!!
omg….let’s see how am I going to DIE in this first test…
hmm…so sad to tell that I’ve failed my LCCI exam and I’m going to retake it in this 23august..
haha…how how?how to deal with 2exams in one same time??
I oso don’t know but i don’t have any other choices.
It’s eitheR WANT or DON’T WANT..
omg…
Other than that,I’m going to take my DIploma ATCL exam this year end…
hope that the exam time won’t clash with my University exam…
If not…i aso don’t know how am i going to settle it…
hmm….this month i’ve used a lot of money…
Rm2197 for school fees..
RM3129 for my laptop…
RM1900 for my cello…
RM1030 for my piano DIploma exam…
RM175 for my LCCI retake…
try to sum it up…
i don’t ever try to sum it up because i know it’s a HUGE amount!!!
it just gone in one month..and it takes a long time to save it…
my parents help me to pay first..
the time i get my laptop from my dad, the time i get the cash from my mum…i really feel touched…
i really can feel their "FU CHU"…i wante d to cry but i just tahan it.
really thanks to my parents..
i can’t really describe the feeling but i can say that….i will never repay for all the things they did for me…
what i can do now, is STUDY HARD…happy in my life, don’t ever let them worry about me…
DADDY AND MUMMY…I LOVE YOU BOTH…MUACKS….
back to the topic…i’m going to show my MAD TIMETABLE…
let’s see how MAD it is…
for you all information, only music course students’ timetable is that mad…
even science students is more free than us…
MONDAY:
8-12am piano practise
12-1pm alto sectional
1-3pm choir
4-5pm alto
5-6pm cello sectional
7-8pm piano practise
8-10.30pm orchestra
TUESDAY
8-9am piano practise
10-12pm multimedia
2-4pm aural interaction skills
4-5pm aural skills
7-9pm cello practise
9-10.30pm cello lesson
WEDNESDAY
8.45-11.45am music awareness
12-1pm piano lesson
1-2pm lunch recital
2-3pm music language
5-7pm multimedia
8-10.30pm orchestra
THURSDAY
9-11am music language
11-1pm aural
2-3pm piano practise
4-5pm aural interaction skills
5-7pm piano practise
8-9.30pm wushu
FRIDAY
8-10am piano practise
11-12pm multimedia (LAB)
12-3pm piano practise
3-5pm men and agriculture
see…how how??who said 19 credits means study 19 hours in a week??
who said 10subjects only and can have much free time??
who said music course is easy??
i have to attend my class + my 14hours of piano practise + 2hours of my cello practise…
it’s not easy, man..
actually,i write this blog just to release my tension.
Today, i’m being complained..
it’s the first time i face this situation..really don’t know how to face it.
it’s not that i teach piano just to earn extra money..
i really put in my effort to teach all my students, i really do all my responsibility.
i keep on repeat telling my students to curve their fingers and i do say it every lesson..
they can’t do it, i try my best to find out the solution and try to find out the best way to let them curve their fingers…
when the time the principal tells me that, i feel that my heart…drop onto the floor…it breaks…
i teach piano, not just for fun, not just for money, not just play play…
i’m serious.
haiz…kind of want to give up.
don’t know since when i’m easily give up…
stupid me…
i won’t cry, i’ll just hide myself..
let myself day dream…
it’s really damn sad..to hear about that…
maybe…i’m just too tired..
next week exam, it’s very damn soon…
high pressure…
this year birthday, i really wish that i can get myself a big bear…
so that i can hug it every time when i feel tired.
i can’t hug anyone but at least, i can hug the bear…
p/s: started my wushu class, that’s the only time i can really "free of pressure"…i can jump as high as i can, i can sweat until my shirts and pants are wet…so glad that UPM have this activity and so happy that i manage to attend the class…
列车缓缓走着…我的眼神也跟着游荡着…
心，是空的。
想起你，带甜……带酸的……
故事到了拜拜，留下了什么？
我伸手想挽着，你把它给甩开了……
你什么都没留下，只是留下了歌…
一首首的歌…这都是我从你身上所争取到的。
普通的情歌，因为有你的诠释，而变得不平凡了…
一路上的风景都很迷人，
只是…我还在迷惑着。
“爱你的那一个，想你的那一个，谁才是你爱情中的伯乐？”
寻找……爱情中的伯乐……
寻觅着……
